Well that’s it... I have officially signed off on my maternity leave!
To most people going off on maternity is like yayyy... but it most definitely isn’t going to be that for me until baby is here safe. Yesterday was my first day off and I honestly just spent the day with a rubber block in my throat nearly bursting into tears feeling very sorry for myself. Distraction has always been a large coping strategy for me, when I have too much time to myself I definitely hit rock bottom fast, I have always been a worrier and I have always been VERY sensitive, so distraction for me is key to keeping myself straight which I only really discovered less than 6 months ago, so now being off work that’s a large part of my daily distraction gone, but I am going to try my best to keep busy and keep positive and not let my mind take over everything I have built up. I am obsessed with cleaning at the minute and trying new cleaning products so hopefully that will keep me busy!
Only 3 more weeks to go, (fingers crossed) until we meet our little boy.
I hope we are doing Nev proud, I know she will be there in her own way when her little brother arrives.
I love you all the world princess, my first love 💕.
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