@rattlesandheels - I’ve shared this story with my close friends and family before but never publicly out of fear is sounding crazy. I feel moved to share it today because I consider this little community family and I know you get me. Although I might have Brene Brown vulnerability hangover after hitting share.
When I went to see my doctor 3 days after my due date to check in this sweet girl, my doctor discovered that her heart rate was dropping and decided to induce my labor.
I immediately felt the tightness that is fear takeover my body but I know that was the worst way to go into labor. I had beautiful experiences with my first two children and I really wanted to keep the same energy I had so I pulled out my iPad while I waited and I wrote a gratitude letter to my great-grandma and my grandma.
My great-grandma because she was the mother of 10 children and a midwife so she surely had encountered a similar situation before and my grandma because her love for me could get me through ANYTHING.
I understood that these female ancestors would show up to support me the minute that I walked into triage and saw my nurse’s badge — Sylvia my grandma’s name. I started crying knowing that this was her telling me she had my back. I cried and when the nurse asked what was wrong, she cried too telling me her son had a similar experience at an interview.
While I didn’t know at that moment what exactly would happen that night I felt a bit more confident. I ended up in active labor for less than an hour, my contractions were painful but I didn’t have back labor like I did with my son and I was able to give birth to her (my biggest baby) naturally without a single tear. My 11/11 baby 💕✨ Thanks to this experience there isn’t anything you can convince me that I’m not capable of doing with the fierce women of my lineage who are guiding me and are my children’s guardian angels. My husband and I decided to name my daughter Ivy because of this experience using the letters from my grandma’s name Sylvia. I look forward to telling her this story when she’s older..
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