Having an open heart full of self love makes it easy to love others. I totally get why people become aware of being polyamorous.
You just see people and you see much beauty.
I don't think there is any one true love apart from ourselves and love for life.
When we truly love ourselves the cosmos become our lover and we see the face of our lover in anyone we resonate deeply with.
A recognition of ourselves in another.
The beauty we found within reflected in another. Our capacity to love ourselves so magnified that it's reflected back to us from anyone who appreciates us deeply and in those moments we stare right into the embodiment of our own love. It's the same for hate, jealousy and inadequacy. We will be reminded of who we are until we are love and loving. And then when we have shed everything within that we deem ugly which is not our true self but a by product of cultural condition all we will be reminded of in every moment is how beautiful we truly are.
It might overwhelm you at first. Let it.
Let it bring you to tears. Cleansing you of your disbelief, your self hate and cultural deceptions. You were always enough, always beautiful you just lost yourself for a hot minute.
Fortunately there is still time to love yourself.
Underneath all you run from within awaits everything you ever wanted. Everything you have hidden from the world and even yourself.
And you will be amazed at all that you find.
It may even scare you at first how much beauty you hold and all you will have to embody is a lot to live up to, but it would not be inside unless it wanted to come forth. Open slowly and blossom, petal by petal like a flower.
Let your heart radiate all you are so it can shine back on you through all your creations.
You are loved, more than you allow yourself to be. It is time to let yourself come home.
You have been greatly missed. Welcome home.